What now?

So I didn't know where else to write this so I decided to put it here, I doubt anyone reads it but I needed somewhere to write.

I have no idea what to do anymore. I have no job, and don't really want one...cause all I can really get is dead-end meaningless shit. I can't go back to school cause I have no money or credit and I still owe my last school money. The woman of my dreams wants to "just be friends" and that is killing me. I was going to move out to LA but now I don't even think I want to do that since I was going to move out there for her. Just kind of seems like a waste now. I hate living here in Orlando, I just feel so alone. I really only have one friend who I ever see and latley I feel like I am using her just to get around since my damn car is still in the shop. I haven't hung out with Greg in god knows how long and that sucks. It's as much my fault as it is his. I am just really unhappy and have been for a really long time now. I just wish I could solve some of these problems. Mainly the woman one. I either want her to feel for me like I do for her or for me to stop feeling the way I do. Since as it stands I feel like crap. I wish I could get some sort of a sign or a path or something. I don't even know what I want to do anymore, forget what I am going to do I don't even know what I WANT to do. How sad is that?