Welcome new douche bags

Hey welcome new douche bags. If you are newly reading this blog then I am talking to you. Eat shit!

For my old readers ignore this as it isn't ment for you. But my most recent landlord decided to send someone or waste the time herself to find my blogs so this is targeted at her/them. FUCK YOU, you morons. I am better then you and I know it.

Goddamn it...

I am sure no one is reading this anymore but I don't give a shit, I need somewhere to talk and this was the only place I could think of to do it that the person I am talking about wouldn't read it.

So a few months ago I dated a girl, I really liked her and we had been friends for a while. At the time things just didn't work out for us, she was really busy, and I was really busy and I was still not over Holly at the time. So we broke it off. But we stayed friends, and that was fine for a while. Of course the Holly thing didn't pan out, and I actually stopped being friends with her at all. Well the other girl and I started hanging out more and more, espically in the last month or two since she is moving to LA in June/July, so we have been trying to see each other as much as possible. Well I started to have feelings for her again, and I felt like she was having them too. So after thinking about it for a couple of days (or a week) I decided that I was going to sack-up and ask her back out. I figured that if I could come up with good answers for all of her objections to it then we could make it work. Well I did, and she said yes! I was really happy about it. (though in retro-spect I just hard sold her on the idea and just broke down her will to say no, I guess I did learn something selling cars) Well a week goes by, and I haven't seen her since, I have tried to but it just hasn't happened. So tonight I made the supid mistake of asking her friend if she has seemed a bit stand-offish or just off to her or if it was just to me. Well the friend of course just tells her every fucking word I said and she gets all pissed at me, and then pissed at me for thanking the friend for opening her mouth! After a long talk, all over AIM mind you, she ends the relationship. She just says that she doesn't want to get attached to me, only to break up with me in two months, because no matter what happens she is going to break up with me in two months. She is moving to LA single no matter what. She says all this BS about being bad at relationships and what not but I just think it's excuses. I am pretty upset about it, but I am only a little bit mad at her about it, I am not real thrilled with her friend for telling her what I asked as that seemed to spark the whole thing. She now says that if things are ment to be then they will be, but I have found that in life, that is bullshit. If things are ment to be and you don't fight for them they they don't happen. There is no MENT TO BE! There is only what you make happen. To quote the Terminator movies "There's no fate but what you make." Don't believe me sit on your ass and try to get a job, or get in shape, or get a girlfriend, just don't leave the house. You think that you are going to get any of those things?? Fuck no! No go out and try to get a job, I bet you can, go out and try to get in shape, I bet you can, girlfriend I bet so too. You know what the more I type all this the madder I am getting about it. I am also pretty pissed because I just spent like $100 on costume shit for a costume just to go with one she made...GOD DAMN IT, I could have spent that money on something else.

A paradox in my mouth!

Wow I haven't posted here in forever, and I doubt anyone is still reading this but who gives a shit I am posting now. And what you may ask spurned me into making this epic post? Well fine folks today I ate a paradox. That's right a paradox. (look it up if you don't know what it means) Today I went to Universal with Tally just to get out of the apartment ( a new one by the way, I moved a couple of weeks ago). While there we stopped at the candy store on our way out of Studios before heading to IOA. At the aformentioned candy store I found something called "crunchy gummy bears." Now these are not just stale gummy bears because stale are no longer gummy, just hard. These are gummy bears covered in a bunch of tiny little crunchy balls, like spinkles or something, but they are still soft and chewey in the middle. I ate one and I thought my mouth was going to open up into a black hole or consume it's self or something. The bear is both crunchy and gummy at the same time. It was confusing, and it blew my mind. I might have to go back tomorrow just to get some more of these things to see if I can time travel or something if I eat them. That is all... wasn't that worth it? No? Fuck you.

Paintball and blogging...

Welcome back folks, as some of you are aware I went and played a full weekend of paintball this previous weekend. Once again it was up at Wayne's World of Paintball in Ocala, FL. It was two nights and three days spent up there with paintballing on two of the days and one of the nights (though I didn't play at night). Dave and I went this year, Greg pussied out. We had a hell of a good time, we got to shoot lots of people, I got shot quite a bit. I managed not to get shot by a tank this year like I usually do. With out Greg there it made my ability to do balls out stupid moves like I like to do a bit harder since he ususally does them with me, and supports those moves. Dave...not so much. But Dave is still a decent enough player and fun to be in the game with. Originally we were going to get our hands on a head mounted camera that we were going to be able to take into the game with us for some in game action, but alas stupid OPD kept it to take to S.W.A.T. round-up. Selfish bitches (unless OPD is reading this, then I love you guys and keep up the good work)! But I did take my camera out there with me and did a short video blog from out there. So feel free to check that out.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dDeicGZ80Yw

In case you live in a hole and didn't know today is Tuesday the 9th of December...you know what happens on the 9th?? DARK KNIGHT COMES OUT ON DVD!!! GO OUT AND BUY IT BITCHES!

I was out at Best Buy last night at midnight to get my copy. They had a midnight sale of them and they had cool exclusives. Here is a quick run down of the 9 different versions of the movie you can get:
Single disk widescreen DVD
Single disk fullscreen DVD
Blu-ray special editon
Two disk special edition Widescreen DVD
Wal-mart exclusive edition single disk widescreen DVD with replica Two-Face/Harvey Dent coin
Circuit City exclusive edition two disk widescreen DVD with Bat-logo journal (blank journal)
Target exclusive edition Blu-ray or DVD (I think they did this with the DVD edition also but iI am not sure) Batman Mask case
Best Buy exclusive two disk edition with collectible mini Joker Clown mask or Batman bat masks
Best Buy exclusive Blu-ray edition with collectible mini Bat-pod statue and hard disk case

Also Best Buy has exclusive Joker and Batman mini statues, and while supplies last exclusive Joker cards. (also their employees have cool shirts and "I Believe in Harvey Dent" buttons that you might be able to talk them out of..I did)

Your best bet is of course the Blu-ray with Bat Pod edition but good luck finding it and of course you need a blu-ray player for it to work.

Since I have neither a large HD tv nor a blu-ray player I was stuck with the Joker clown mask DVD version. Regardless the clown mask is pretty cool. I am a bit dissapointed in the special features on this disk, not much in the way of behind the scenes or making of kind of stuff. Also no deleted scenes at all. I was more then a bit dissapointed in the bonus features, but still the movie is worth owning.

Video blog is up...

Ok so my video blog is finally up on youtube. I figured out what the problem was, I was trying to use too high of a resolution video, I toned it down and it worked just fine. So here is the link to the new video.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AkCaud4Axcg

I think I am going to keep this blog for my day to day nonsense. I am going to use the video blog for more entertaining things.

An awesome note, this weekend I am going to Ocala to play paintball for three days again. Greg isn't going because he is a little bitch. But Dave and I are going and we are going to have a great time. But the super cool news is that Dave's friend who runs a army/navy style store might be loaning us a helmet mounted camera to use in the field. So after this weekend my V-blog might actually have mid game footage, which would be awesome!

Black Friday of death...

So here we are again cats and kittens, welcome. Well today was Black Friday, the greatest of days if you are a real capitalist. What better of a pseudo-holiday then the one made up by retailers for the all important dollar! Now it may sound like I don't like black friday, but this couldn't be further from the truth, I am a huge fan. What's not to like? Cheap crap you don't really need but somehow decide you really can't live without beacuse it is stupid cheap, thousands of people all trying to get the same exact thing you are despite the store only have ten of them, parking lot nightmares, angry mobs of soccer moms fighting over the last shirt in their size marked down to a penny...it's all glorious. What's sad, I actually love all of these things about this day (except the parking lot thing, that shit annoys everyone). Today like I have for the past several years I went out shopping. In the past I have gotten up really early and been outside stores before they opened trying to get some super deal on some new gadet or cheap software or the like. This year I didn't see anything I really had to own that would justify going out at four am looking for it. So I managed to sleep in a bit, got up ate some breakfast, showered (your welcome other shoppers) and got dressed. Julie was supposed to meet me at my parents house at nine fifteen, I knew last night that wasn't really going to happen but I entertained her and said ok. Well about nine fifteen she calls and said she just got out of bed and wouldn't be able to meet me until about eleven. I laughed, as I saw that coming a mile away. Well I headed out to the mall as I needed to get to Express before eleven so I didn't miss their big sale. I went to the mall and managed to actually find a parking spot pretty close after only circling around twice. Went in and B-lined straight for Express. I went in to find out they were having a better sale then I expected. They had 25% off everything in the store, plus mark downs on things like jeans and some other stuff. Since I had alreday looked on their website I knew what I was looking for, I found the shirts I liked and a pair of jeans, I tried them on (to have my ego boosted since I got size 30 jeans and size medium shirts!!!) found what I liked and went to check out. At check out I got a free pair of lounge pants because I had a coupon (worth $40). In the end I got over $200 worth of stuff for $130. I know still a lot of money, but I saved a ton and that is a good deal. Also they gave me $50 in Express dollars that I can use on my next purchase of over $100 (so I get $100 worth of stuff for $50). I am pretty happy with the stuff I got, and it marks a new page in my fasion life, the end of the jeans and a t-shirt all the time phase.

After I left Express I wondered around the mall for what seemed like hours, I went into nearly every damn store that might have even sort of sold mens stuff. Finally I got bored of walking around and hungry so I left. I stopped on my way to get lunch at Office Depot looking for a webcam (actually a pair of them) that they had on stupid crazy sale...they were sold out. I left and went to get lunch at my favorite place to eat down here C.R. Chicks (read older blog posts about this place). Julie was supposed to meet me there, well I manged to order food, and slowly eat it and she still wasn't there. So I left and went to Best Buy to look for a webcam and some cheap DVDs. After wondering around there for a while, finding a couple of DVDs I wanted and finding out that webcams were all around $40-$50, Julie finally showed up. We walked around a bit more, I paid for my DVDs (Doomsday and Superbad) and left. We went to a couple of stores in the same shopping center (to no avail) and then went back to the mall because Julie wanted to see some stuff.

While at the mall in Macys I noticed that they had a small Lenscrafters in the store, and more importantly they were having a sale of $100 off any frames. This got me excited so I went in to check it out, after looking around at frames for a while I found a really nice pair I really liked and got the low down on the sale (it doesn't end until the end of the year). Here soon Mom said she would buy me new glasses and with this sale it will really help. I am going to get these RayBans I liked. I am really excited about that.

After that we stopped in Brooksstone and looked at some random stuff. Julie made the comment about me probally liking this toy robot that could talk to you and respond to your commands and what not, I then explained to her that I was afraid of robots because I am sure one day they will get too smart and self-aware and relize they don't need humans and kill us. (think Matrix, or Terminator or even I-Robot) while walking though the store I got one of the girls working at the store involved in the conversation, and totally mind fucked her. She was just off in a daze thinking about how she didn't want to be there, and then I come in with Robot Apocolapse and she had to actually think about it, then of course that turned into Zombie apocolapse talk. She said that was by far the most interesting thing anyone had said to her all day.

From there we ran some more errands, had some more food at another of my favorites, John Smith Subs, and then went back to my place. We hung out there for a little while until my parents got home and took us out to dinner. We ate, the came back here, only to leave again and go see the new movie Four Christmases.

Four Christmases- It was pretty funny, a good amount of the funny parts were in the trailers, but I still laughed at most of them. All in all B+

I dropped Julie back off at her car and came home. I started to play with the new webcame I bought, only to relize that my new digital camera my parents got me shoots video in HD, and the webcame shoots video in shitty jumpy crap. So I am going to retun the webcam and get my money back for it and just use my digital camrea, which is also nice because I can do v-blog spots on locations. I would post a link to my new v-blog on Youtube here, but it is being stupidly slow uploading. Soon I will post the link.

It's 6:30am...why the hell am I still awake???

Well I will tell you, after several long, long days and nights in a row I am finally finished with this stupid ESB Fett helmet that I am painting for someone. The helmet is totally done. The visor is installed, the RF is attached, the MQ-1 board is installed, and most importantly the paint job is 100% DONE! I have been working for hours and hours every day for the last like five days to try to get this thing done and I finally finished it this morning. I have hated this helmet all the way from start to finish, and I was really not happy with how it was coming along but in the end I am actually really pleased with the end result. I guess it's true the whole is greater then the sum of it's parts. Is it perfect? No not by a long shot. There are a bunch of things I would do differently if I were to do it over. If it were my helmet I might even try to do them at this point but since it isn't I am not going to touch it. I will suggest to the new owner to replace the visor in it with an accurate dark green welders face shield as the dark grey one that came with this kit sucks anus. It is the wrong color for the ESB helmet, and it isn't dark enough (I can see my own face in the mirror while wearing it). Also I don't like the range finder that came with the kit (or the flimsy resin stalk for that matter either) as it is all one peice and not three seperate ones as it should be, now normally this wouldn't make a big deal if it was ment to all be painted the same color, or even different colors. But the middle section of it should be clear, and well there is no way I can paint fiberglass clear. It just isn't possible. Another problem and this one is minor, I couldn't find the perfect accurate color for one of the ears (none of the shops in town had any and I didn't have time to order it) so I had to use an off the shelf spray paint that was suggest to me. Most people would never notice, but I know it isn't right so it bothers me. The only other big pet peeve I have is with the kill stripes decals I used. This one is probally my fault, most of the time I paint the kill stipes on by hand, but this time I wanted to use the nifty decals I got on TDH for them. They came pre-weathered (meaning the little peices are missing out of them where they should be, or at least that is what I was told) but the weathering isn't really that accurate. It is close, but not quite perfect. Also the ESB kill stripes should fade from a yellow color to a orangeish yellow color, and these are all the same bright yellow color. I tried to hide this a bit with a dark grey misting over the back half and then lightening up as I moved forward and it works, but again not 100%. All in all I am pretty pleased with my work, I think it really is as good as I could make it, except for the above mentioned items. I kind of want to keep this helmet as it is the first ESB helmet I have done and I kind of like it. I can't of course keep it as I can't afford to pay the guy who paid me for it back what he paid me ($300 for the paint plus I think $265 for the helmet!) plus I am sure he wouldn't do it after waiting this long for it. After seeing how this one came out I feel a lot better about having to paint Scott's when he sends it to me, and depending on how many helmets he sends me for myself I might even have a go at an ESB for me too. I do think I am going to have to tell Mac that I can't paint his, I think Mac is too detail oriented and will never be happy with my paint job and I don't want to spend that much time only for him to be dissapointed. I know he isn't going to be happy about that, and I wouldn't blame him but I think it will be better in the long run. My parents got me a new ten megapixel digital camera for my birthday (which is next week bitches!) and I am going to take this helmet down to West Palm with me tonight to get some good photos of it. I will post them here when I do.

Oh since i clearly just mentioned it, I am going down to West Palm either tonight or tomorrow morning for Thanksgiving to see my folks. We are going to celebrate my mom's birthday, my birthday and Thanksgiving all at once, like we do every year. I am exctied. I am also going to see Julie Friday, we are going to go shopping and then to a movie, so I am excited about that too.

On another note, I don't remember if I posted on here or not, but my girlfriend and I broke up a little while ago, things just weren't working out for us, but we are staying friends and I think that is good. Holly still just wants to be friends, and I am not happy about that, so much so that I am thinking about telling her I can't be friends with her as it is really hard on me to talk to her and see her and not be with her. I don't know.

Oh I still have no idea where I am going to live at the end of January, let alone later next year. I am really starting to stress out about it, and it is starting to make me feel kind of sick.

My shoulder is fucked up once again, and this time it doesn't seem to be healing, I think I have done some serious damage to it. Next week on the second (my birthday) I am going to see a doctor about it. Hopefully it's something that can be fixed without surgery, as I can't afford to be out of work for any amount of time (and something tells me shoulder surgery would have me out of work!).

Wow, that one ended up being much longer then I expected. Well that is all for now, I am off to sleep. Have a good day, and if I don't talk to you before then have a happy Thanksgiving!